I want to be one of those cool, calm, and collected movie watchers. One who watches patiently through the Previews and presses play nonchalantly Intending to follow the story line where ever it may lead. Confidently enduring slow starts, undesirable happenings, and seemingly unbeatable villains with unwavering faith that it will happily end the way it is supposed to.
Damn the unavailable perfect one that I cannot get out my head. Damn his intellect and worldliness. Damn him for being ridiculously attractive and most likely out of my league. Damn him because he is everything I want except for single. I just wanted to be the one to make him happy.
My younger brother Troy is in the spring valley treatment center, which is a mental hospital. I have learned tonight that there are very few people concerned with the mental health of others. It makes want to work even harder for my degree so I can take my place among those few. This whole episode is very stressful but I am glad I was able to help my family through it.
There is a boy I can't get out of my head...He makes me smile so I suppose he can stay...but I wish he would ask me out on a date...
My counterpart.
His intelligence is inspiring, yet never condescending. Well spoken; wit as sharp as a razor, but never cruel or careless when choosing his words. In the same way a magnet attracts a paperclip; he is a gravitational force. Quite often the center of attention; instead of basking in the glow of the spotlight he pulls people in to display their brilliance. He is an unquenchable sponge, intrigued by all people and their individual luminosity. Always cognizant that he has two ears and one mouth, therefore conducts himself proportionately. A family man, completely aware of all their dysfunctions and loves them unconditionally anyways. He has the patience of a kindergarten teacher and the capacity to know when enough is enough.
His features are similar to his attractive character. Brunette and strikingly distinguished with a fresh inviting face and strong jaw, adorned with a contagious smile. Perfectly aligned teeth, as though he where an orthodontists son, exposed with a crooked boyish grin. His eyes look as if emeralds were placed in his retinas to remind you how beautiful his inside is. The window to a mysterious and comforting labyrinth I love to loose myself in. He has nimble and gentle hands that have made music, fine art, and a difference. His Broad shoulders exquisitely crafted to cradle me in his loving and safe arms. Pristine skin canvases his poetic anatomy and invokes an irresistible urge to touch him.
Always thoughtful; hand made cards frequent my bathroom mirror. He never misses a chance to show me how much he loves me. He shares my affinity for books and spoken word poetry. Willingly subjects himself to my four hour trips to borders and pretends it isn’t excessive. He gets my random music and movie quotes. Helps me with the plethora of volunteer projects I inundate myself with. When he speaks he appears to be conducting the Phil harmonic, which I feel exemplifies his passion. He is remarkably talented at cooking all of my favorite foods. He positively contributes to my life every moment, the best friend anyone could ask for. He is an artist, environmental activist, volunteer, comedian, student, philosopher, humanitarian, a lover, my counter part.
An about me assignment for english.
I am much better at endings than beginnings but seeing how everything starts somewhere, so ensues a succinct catalogue of my life thus far. Being a neophyte in life at the age of 21, this paragraph seemed rather daunting. I was born in Simi Valley California and moved to Las Vegas when I was five. Reviewing my life in the grand scheme of things it has been rather uneventful. Many have done and seen much more than I have: obtained degrees, semesters abroad, served our country, joined the peace core, gone on a mission, married, bared children. I haven’t even established what exactly I am going to do with my life. I have always been revered by those close to me as an old soul. In my recent introspection to complete this seemingly simple assignment, I started to loose myself in all the things I have never done. I commenced an accounting of what I have done: Graduated High school, been engaged, landed a Job I actually like, and flown on an airplane. This short list seemed to emphasize the inadequacy I was feeling. Then I realized none of those things have anything to do with who I am. Ashley Miller is: an environmental activist, a perpetual student, Lover of Words, captivated by art, dependant on music to live, a friend, daughter, sister, aunt, a future psychologist, or maybe an urban planner, Indecisive, and loaded with potential. Simply defined I am a mix tape with no specific theme, timeless and comforting. While I have not accomplished anything profound in the grand scheme of things, I am not one who particularly cares for Grand schemes. My successes are probably only prevalent to me, and through the composition of this paragraph I’ve determined, that is exactly how I like it. I am much better at endings than beginnings, seeing how everything ends somewhere, so concludes a succinct catalogue of my life thus far.
I'm sitting here waiting for my psych class to start; I don't have anything particularly pressing to write about, just in the mood I guess. I am feeling very me lately, happy to be me I guess you could say. There isn't one amazing thing in particular that is responsible for this feeling, but a few simple things that I value. I like this happy thing, it is an old friend I had been meaning to visit for the longest time. I have been thinking about old times allot and instead of dismissing the feeling as unattainable, I just went with it. Let go of all the anxiety, inhibitions, and self made expectations. I spent time with old friends, just picking up where we left off. Got motivated about how great things will be instead of dwelling on how great they use to be. This happiness is a ninja that just snuck up and judo chopped me with a positive perspective and I love it. Class starts in Five.....
